above all, the truth always shines through.

I moved to WI, officially on July 1st, 2010. I left behind family and some close friends, and since my move, they've all been in my thoughts and prayers. I live with my boyfriend, and it is and has been one of the greatest blessings I've received so far. I am very happy having my own apartment, and I enjoy having company. So far for company, since July 1st, I've had my mom, my brother's girlfriend, my mom's friend, Erik's family, a friend of his, and two friends I've made as guests. That may seem like a lot, but if you think about it, there are some people missing from that list.

For one.. my brother, who works a lot, and doesn't get many days off. He and his girlfriend are planning to visit soon, so hopefully they will. Also, there are my friends. People who I considered, and still consider, best friends. They have never visited me since my move, and as of now don't seem to have any plans to ever. That really makes me feel sad. To know that my own best friends won't take or make the time to visit me. I'd love to show people my home and just spend time with people, but no one ever shows up.

My own mom, who is older and doesn't usually drive as much as an hour and a half, even made her last trip to see me, by herself. I'm very proud of her for that, and if my mom can make the trip by herself, I'd think that my friends could come see me too. My brother dropped me off one time in New Richmond, and he plans on visiting soon. His car has some problems, and he even took the time to bring me there. I'm just very surprised, and don't understand why all of a sudden I don't hear from people back home?

I've been in Faribault since Sunday, and am leaving tomorrow afternoon. Since I've been here, I've seen friends a couple times, otherwise it's been family. I haven't gotten any calls or texts by my friends inviting me to hang out, when I'm in town. I've been the one making the effort.. because I miss them. I really really miss my best friends. I wish they would visit me, it doesn't matter if you don't have extra cash for shopping or food, I'll cook, and you can stay at my place. I have an extra room for a reason.

I'm not blaming anyone, or trying to make anyone mad, I'm just stating my feelings on the matter and how it all seems to me. If I'm wrong, please correct me. Don't get me wrong though, the time I have spent with everyone has been great and I miss being able to see people whenever.I just wish my friends made as much of an effort as I try to do.

Getting grouped is kinda weird..

So two weekends ago Saturday, I was a referee for one of Sheik Adnon El Kassie's shows, in Hopkins, MN. I was also to be in the main event battle royal, and I was eliminated before the end. So during the 4th match, which I did not ref, I was relaxing by the merch table, watching the match. During that time, a mentally handicapped guy walked by while looking at me.Then he made his way back and came over to me, and quietly said, "Your hot." Ok, great, thanks. I've heard it all before, always being in bars and stuff, so I was like whatever. So during the main event, after I was eliminated, I went into the back room where some of the wrestlers were changing, so it's just Starla and I back there. 

 Well all of a sudden the door opens, and it's that same handicap guy. I told him he can't be back there, and that this was our changing room, and yadda yadda. He's not listening, so I go over to him, telling him to get out, and he starts telling.. not asking, telling me, that he wants a kiss. I want a kiss, I want a kiss.. so I'm like no, and he grabs my shoulders, to try and like force me to kiss him, and then he grabs my boobs. At this point Starla gets up and starts yelling at him, and then he left. WTF?? Seriously? And where was his caretaker during all this? Anyways.. so I'm like totally pissed, and I can't believe that just happened. So I put on my ref shirt, seeing as I had a tank top on before, and I go out into the big hall where we were. I also notice when I walked out of the room, that he was just standing by the doors to the changing area, just standing there. So I go over to Heather, and tell her all about it. She wasn't very happy either, and she started asking around for his caretaker, and no one seems to know anything. 

So finally Heather just decided to go up to t he handicap guy, and she leads him out of the room, down a couple hallways and into the bar area of this Eagle's Club. I guess when she was walking with him, he started asking her for a kiss as well. She told him no, that she is married and has a husband, and I guess he backed off. So in the bar area, Heather found his person, and I guess he seemed handicapped or something too. She said he was really really creepy, so she just left the guy there and left. I very much appreciate her helping me out. 

So.. yeah. I basically got grouped, and it wasn't cool. I could have tried to press charges or something, but what's the point when he might not even know what he was doing? I'm not trying to defend him, but I guess I didn't wanna make a big deal out of it. His caretaker should have been watching him though, not letting him wander around on his own, with the caretaker in a completely different part of the building. Soo yeah, that's that. Now that I look back on it all, I find it a little annoying still, but more amusing than anything else.